So what do you do when you feel like you have done everything you can and should do in order to find a job, and absolutely nothing is there to reflect those efforts?
This is what has plagued me for the past ten months now and I have yet to overcome it. I have bad days sometimes and I have good days sometimes. I guess you could say today has been a bad day for me. Without getting into the less than interesting details of my quest for employment, it will suffice to say that I have had a tough time finding a job. Whether it is here in Abilene, Dallas, Houston, California, or New Jersey–God has yet to provide a job. Now, for those of you out there who are subconciously saying, “Well you must not be looking hard enough” or, “You’re probably too proud to take the jobs that are available”, I must submit that not even the local barbecue pit needs a busboy.
So back to the question: What does a Worship Pastor do when doing what he loves to do is not paying off? What does he do when he can’t even find a job that he hates? Well I have a few suggestions that I know are essential in times like these, but as I said, God has yet to respond.
Constant and repeated prayer? Having those around me pray as well? Fasting? Constantly contacting eveyone I know in hopes that God will use them to provide? Constantly penetrating every place of employment with my resume? Needless to say, I have checked all of these things off of my list countless times.
So what is the answer? Well, I’ll tell you. Keep trying. Keep working as hard as I can to resolve this issue. Pursue everything. Keep praying. Keep asking others to pray. Keep doing exactly what I’ve been doing. If I’ve missed anything, let me know.
I’m sorry for this moment of weakness. I struggled whether or not I should use this website to vent about my life, but I figured, if you can’t vent on a blog, where can you vent? I don’t want you to think that I’m going crazy here. I still go to sleep every night knowing that God does provide and He will provide. I also know he will provide exactly what I need. I also know that He will probably provide something better than I am expecting. I’m just tired of doing the legwork I guess.
Again, I apologize for the depressing monologue, but it’s really the only thing on my mind today. I promise to keep it light next time!