Well I picked up Oswald Chambers this morning and found some good insight for where I am in life right now. In case you haven’t figured it out by now, Katy and I have been at a crossroads for almost two years now. We are both finished with school (we think) and have yet to figure out what to do about jobs, careers, and where to live. These past months I have exhausted myself asking God what he wants us to do, where we should go, and to provide a way for us to do it. As of today, we’re still in a fog, but Chambers reminded me again this morning that these questions are not necessary. He submits that we should put God’s needs first, not ours. I agree with this, but sometimes it is difficult to walk that line because I so deeply want to meet God’s needs, to do God’s will, so it often it appears that when I ask God about His will, I am asking Him about my needs. Does that make sense? I need to know God’s need.
Now, normally I would just remind myself that it is not my job to know what to do about God’s specific will for my life, but that can be very difficult to avoid when the pressure is on to make some decisions and make them quickly.
So, is it wrong to ask God about this stuff? Heck no, but beware of frustration, because He may or may not give you an answer yet. God’s been telling me to wait for almost two years now and my circumstances are telling me to make a decision now.
I am here on this earth to do one thing—follow God. I have been created to obey God and offer Him my life in service to Him. There are other things I am called to as well; Katy also has a calling. There are a few essential things that I know I need to do in my life, and as a wise friend once told me, “If you can’t do what you are called to do where you are, why stay? If you can do what you are called to do where you are, why leave?”
Now, there are several problems that arise when I try to apply this principle to my situation, but I believe the principle’s integrity remains, so I must keep trying. I must always make sure I am doing those essential things to which I am called. That is obedience. That is what God wants. I know at least that much.